Written by: Patti
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"On the Other Side" 27
by Patti L. (c) 2000
"What place is this? Just wait here and Jesus Christ will be coming to spend some time here with me? As soon as he feels up to it? He has some special assignment for me? Books he wants me to read before I can leave here? No leaving until I'm finished reading them? ALL of them? How many is ALL OF THEM? About 18? How the hell can I read 18 books? Made people read a hell of a lot more of MY STUPID BOOKS!! Yeah, so? Drop the attitude? No more patience with me? Jesus is coming?
"Greetings to you in the name of... uh...huh... kinduv a habit, J.C. speakin' in your name and all... best to pay attention while you can speak civil to me? Running low on patience? So, what's up, Doc? CAN the attitude? Show some respect? Yeah, yeah, J.C., what's it this time you want me to do. That guide guy told me you want me to read some books... 18 of 'em. How the hell am I going to read 18 books? Start with the children's book? "Mountains, Meadows and Moonbeams"? Has all the basics in it that I need to learn? The truth? The plain truth, no pun intended, huh? Plain and simple... Written by someone NEAR and DEAR to your heart? She's still on planet earth, writing the books you want her to write... No? Books GOD wants her to write... you're only the messenger... So is she... doing what is hers to do... Oh, I see. Another FEMALE author! Huh? So who wrote these books? Her name is Mary Summer Rain? Never heard of her, J.C. I'll get to know her by reading her books? Oh. No choice? Always a choice... oh good... let me outa here! Not until I've read the books? Choice is mine how soon I want to leave... AFTER I've read them? Oh.
"I have to read them in the order you tell me? Reason for this? Get the basics first, the bigger stuff as I go along... Can't handle the heavy-duty truth until I understand the little things like are in this kid's book... Another kids book then... What's the name of that? "Star Babies"? About astronomy? Not exactly... oh. Book of origins. Hummm... The next one is "Spirit Song", then "Phoenix Rising", then "Dreamwalker" and then "Phantoms Afoot"? Sound strange to me... what are they all about? Basic truths given to all mankind that have been lost and forgotten... oh. Explains all these ghostly things, huh, Doc? You're not "Doc" and wish to be called by your name. Ok, ok Jesus Christ. I was only being playful. No time to play now? Days of playing are behind me for awhile? Read or no more pork chops? That's not fair, J.C. Just not fair!!! It is fair? Only way to convince me to do something is reward me like a little kid? Thanks a heap, J.C. Yeah, yeah.... I'll read!
"Wow!!! This 'mountain' book tells how people travel in their spirit while they dream... just like all those who came here to visit me in their nightmares! Wow! This is going to be interesting! Wish I had some pop corn to munch on while I read! Oh, here's a bucket of it right from the theater, huh? Hot from the popper? Thanks. Hey, this is great! Now if I had a beer... don't push my luck... huh. Ok.. I'll settle for lemonade, J.C. since you insist!
"After I read these we'll go back and see those discarnate spirits again. Take some helpers along who know how to do the love meld? What the hell is a love meld? Oh, that's what those people who came to help you, J.C., did when they were glowing? Hum... It takes LOVE to bring discarnates to the light... lots of LOVE and I never had real love... too freaked out already when you tried to help them... yeah... I noticed that, J.C.
"You're going to bring me the stack of books now? Read the first six and then read them all in the order they're stacked... "Earthway", "Daybreak", "Soul Sounds", "Whispered Wisdom", "Ancient Echoes", "Bittersweet", "Mary Summer Rain's Guide to Dream Symbols", "The Visitation", "Fireside", "Eclipse", "The Singing Web", and lastly, "The Seventh Mesa". I hope you'll be bringing me more than JUST POP CORN while I read ALL THESE!!!! I'll have to do another SIX MONTHS IN-DEPTH STUDY!!!! Whadda ya mean a day is as a thousand years here? Whadda ya mean TAKE ALL THE TIME I NEED??? Plenty of pop corn on hand? Even pork chops in the fridge? Learn to cook, too? THAT'S W*o*m*e*n*s WORK.... NOT? Not. Oh Shit!
"Now I have to read all these damn books. Here I sit all by myself and I hate it. I just hate it. Nobody to fetch my slippers. Nobody to run my bath water. Nobody to listen to me whine? At least I can whine if I WANT to... I'll WHINE whenever I want to! I'll do whatever I WANT if I WANT TO!!! After all, I'm God's apostle!!!
"Hummm... says here that everybody has a spark of God inside them.... hummm...I suppose when the BIG BANG exploded thats when everybody got sparked! Heh, heh... Close to the truth? Chips off the Great Spirit? Not an accidental explosion? You're back? Yeah, J.C. I've been readin' in here. Interesting... Almost confirms some of my writings in "Mystery of the Ages"... Oh, except that Mary Summer Rain's books aren't laced with bullshit like mine? Even her book of fiction, "Seventh Mesa" has more truth in it than any of my writings? That's not nice to say, J.C. Not nice at all!!!! The truth IS the TRUTH?
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"On the Other Side" 28
by Patti L. (c) 2000
"How's my reading coming? Just finished the "mountains" book. Great stuff. Learned all kinds of things! Yeah, I'd like to take a break! Where we going? What place is this, J.C.? Better to ask when, not where? Ok, so when are we.... Crossed the time line?? Went back in time? Place is near where I lived? Oh... So these people all lived here back before recorded history? Pay attention to them? They are worshipping God in true spirituality? Following the instructions that were given to them by God's messengers? Have a real spiritual life?? Direct communication with spirit? All of them? They do!? Wow!! Look at those lodges with all the steam coming up from them! The lodge is the womb of Mother Earth? That's where they go to pray and receive the answers to their prayers from spirit? Really a foreign concept, J.C.!!! Not foreign? I'm the one who has foreign concepts? I'm the one who created chaos and complicated the plain and simple truth? Me and a whole lot of other false prophets and preachers!?
"So, J.C., you're telling me that God gave all of the people on the earth the truths in the beginning of time and over the eons it got contaminated with falsehoods and dominating people like me, saw the opportunity to control the people and enslave them so they could subjugate the people in order that they could live in luxury at the expense of others? What's that over there? Oh, its a village... Lots of children running around... happy and playing... old people too, enjoying themselves... enjoying the children... oh, and there's some young men bringing in supplies of food and giving them to the elders first, and then dividing up the rest between the families in the village... so everyone's needs are taken care of, J.C. Is THAT your point? One of your points... Another is that all are equally deserving... everyone has what they need... no reason why anyone on all of earth should go hungry if they had continued to live this way? Nobody NEEDS more than they need? Get caught up in WANTS like I did? Want everything? Like jet planes, fine Chinawear, jewelry... Not wrong in itself, unless it is gotten at the expense and exploitation of others... modern society advocates stepping on anybody, everybody in order to get ahead... Not God's way?
"Unfortunately many people are not interested in living God's way... Yeah, I sure wasn't, J.C.! You know that! I preached the way of 'give' and that was ok, but never lived it myself... that's true. Lots of things I preached were ok, but the bad thing was I was a hypocrite? Too much to sort out what was ok and what was not ok? Like picking fly shit out of pepper? Yeah, I see what you mean. Best to start from scratch and learn everything over again! Like I told people they had to get rid of everything they had learned and start with a clean slate? But then I poured spoiled wine into their emptied wine skins? Oh, I get it! Like the scripture says about putting new wine into old wine skins... The spoiled wine I put into their old wine skins caused them to rot from the inside out? I should think about that? Good analogy for what a cult like mine does to human beings? Did YOU say CULT? You DID!!! Mind control, money and POWER CULT??? Just as much a CULT as ANY CULT E*V*E*R WAS???
"Some cults are more damaging than others, but ALL ARE DAMAGING??? All cults have some of the same common characteristics? Not all cults have ALL the same characteristics? So tell me, J.C., what are the common characteristics of cults? People get isolated from others and from outside information... one persons sets themself up as the one and only source of information... like my apostleship, huh? Yeah... and what else? Keeping the people so busy with reading and activities within the group that they don't have many outside connections... change their eating habits... sometimes sleeping habits... demand obedience... use guilt and spiritual blackmail on them... make them think they need the cult for their salvation... their eternal life is held for ransom... called tithes or offerings or service work... make them pay and pray... boy...did I do all that? And MORE? Up there with the WORST of them? LOTS of EZEKIEL 34 perpetrators like me? Those who gather a flock and then feed THEMSELVES rather than the flock... more to it than that but an example?
"Whudda ya mean I 'conditioned' people to stop thinking for themselves and then since I was God's apostle and the only source of information they had, told them exactly what to think and believe? Whudda ya mean I didn't allow them to ask questions? Whudda ya mean I forced them into conformity to MY RULES? Whudda ya mean I created massive FEAR in all my followers? FEAR conrols!!? You mean I created a false sense of belonging to "God's one and only true church" and then could play all of my little and not so little CONTROL games on them?? Like what? Made them dependant on me and the ministry to make all their decisions like they were little children... changed the rules so they'd stay confused and afraid in case they did something that could cause them disfellowshipmnt... left them no privacy... fear that their secrets revealed to the ministry would be broadcast to the brethren... demanded absolute loyalty to MYSELF, disregarding God, spouses, children, family...
I can't stand it!!!! I just can't STAND IT!!!! You know everything I did, Jesus Christ! How can I hide anything from you? You KNOW everything I ever did and everything I ever thought and now there IS NO ESCAPE, is there???? None. I have to live with the knowledge of what I've done with the life God gave me? And how I misused all of my LIFETIME to MANIPULATE and CONROL people for my own PERSONAL USE... Oh I hate it when you put all this in my face, Jesus Christ! I just HATE it!!!
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"On the Other Side" 29
by Patti (c) 2000
"You've come in place of J.C. because he's on another mission? Discuss some of what I've been reading? Like what? Oh, you mean that spiritual stuff in these Mary Summer Rain books! Kinduv interesting! Learned lots of things about paranormal abilities and various dimensional realities. Yeah, lots more than I could distinguish before. Called all spiritual beings DEMONS. That's what I taught in my church. Easier to explain everything away rather than pick the fly shit outa the pepper, you know... Oh, you DON'T know... well, that's a phrase I learned here... means discernment... Now reading these books I'm learning to discern all these various entities and states of interdimensional travel... Yeah, I see that adept people can do some really incredible stuff... Never realized this even in my six-month in depth studies of the Bible... Takes a lifetime of study and research, not just six months... not all answers are recorded in the Bible? Yeah, I've been hearing that since I've been here... Many other valid resources to learn from... Yeah, I did limit my followers to the Bible and MYSELF as their sole resources for information... I'm not too popular here because of this? Yeah, I'm beginning to figure that out... I may have been SOMEONE where I came from, but I'm just another tarnished soul here? Never heard THAT description before! I'll be hearing lots more in the days to come?
"Did I like the first four books in the No-eyes series? Those the ones about Mary's learning from her teacher? Yeah... not bad. Not bad at all... the one about coming earth changes was kinduv scarey though... like the tribulations in the Bible... the same you say? Not future events? Happening all around the globe of the earth right now? Earth quakes, floods, weather changes, volcanos... more of the same to come... and a rebirth of true spirituality... yeah... even after all the damages I've done, and others like me, God will cause the universal truths to prevail and religion will finally fall and crumble... yeah, interesting stuff... and the ghost busting... helping people to go to the light that are caught in between planes... like those discarnates that J.C. and I tried to bring here... showed how the love between people was necessary to extend to these unfortunates, and then with the help of their loved ones from this side, they could be convinced they were dead and finally move on instead of being stuck... yeah, some have been stuck for hundreds of years... explains lots of the ghosts stories we heard about on earth.
"Would I like to go for a walk? Hey, sure! Anything to get out of this place!!! I've been so absorbed in reading these books and trying to COOK that I've lost track of time. Time here doesn't exist? We are experiencing ETERNITY here!!!? That's where we're going now? For a walk into another... WHERE ARE WE? Alternate reality? THIS is what COULD HAVE BEEN? Has to do with FREE WILL? Hey that's ME and LOMA, and those are our KIDS... Ted... Richard... Dorothy... We're sitting around the table together laughing and talking... and the grandkids are there playing... around the Christmas tree... CHRISTMAS TREE???? WHAT THE H*E*L*L IS A CHRISTMAS TREE DOING IN M*Y HOME? oh... yeah... I forgot this is another reality... a possible lifetime... or parrellel one? Oh SHIT!!! Now I AM confused. Did I ever watch Star Trek on TV? Sometimes the crew of the Enterprise or Voyager would experience meeting up with themselves on a parrellel universe? Yeah, so?? More truth than fiction? Simultanious realities IS reality??? No REAL linear time? That's only our perception of time on earth??? Have you been DRINKING Miss...???
"NO I WAS NOT being disrespectful!!! NO I DID NOT SAY YOU WERE FULL OF SHIT! But I WAS thinking it... Yeah... so you're reading my thoughts too. Damn it!!! I can't get away with ANYTHING here! Damn dame comes here with all this bullshit cramming it down my throat, and I can't even THINK IT in my head and she reads my MIND and CALLS ME ON IT!!! Whudda ya mean if I had really READ the Bible I'd have noticed that it says "time was made for mankind" and that truth is stranger than fiction? It SAYS THAT? Not in so many words, but yes... God is UNLIMITED!? I made him out to be some subserviant distant tyrant in battle with an equal but evil enemy, Satan... Yeah... so Satan IS evil!!! Whadda ya mean Satan is the invention of the Catholic Church??? There is NO devil equal in power to God? GOD REALLY I*S A*L*L I*N A*L*L... think about it...??? All there is IS God? Oh... All there IS, is God.
"Go back and read that Kaballah book? More books? Damn it!! I just got finished reading six books, and now I should go re-read THAT damn book? Not a DAMN book!!! God's plain and simple truth! Read it!? Quit whining? Back to my reading room and burnt pork chops? Can't we go to lunch?
"Well that DAME wasn't ALL bad. She let me come here for lunch, John. I'm surprised to see you here, Trechak. Like their pork chops too? Couldn't eat any pork while in Worldwide? Or lobster? Or shrimp? Or Clams?... yeah, I know I made the rules... so that's why you're having the sea food plate as a side dish? Oh, they're for Joe Tkach? He's holed up in some remote place reading books? Ha ha ha ha ha! Atta way to go, Joe! Hey, John... did you know that BABE that escorted me here? Just got back from a major earth mission just about the same time I got here? Read about her in some books? I did? Really?
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"On the Other Side" 30
by Patti (c) 2000
"Where are we, Miss? Not where? When.. Look around? Oh. This is what COULD have been had I NOT created the hideous entity I called the Worldwide Church of God? These are the people living their lives WITHOUT my intervention? They look happy! Oh, there are some of the little kids I met here that died before their time... they grew to adulthood... had their own life experiences... had their chance to advance their spirit... the chance I cut short by refusing them medical attention... Their parents are happy too...living in their homes, retired and content... have enough savings in the bank to see them through their retirement... not stripped of their futures like the reality I created by cheating them out of their money and homes? Oh and there's me... I'm still selling mud... Only my business grew into a major corporation... an HONEST cosmetic firm that developed many excellent products to benefit people... You mean I COULD HAVE succeeded in THAT business? If I'd have put my energies into it like I did my pseudo-religion?
"So, Miss... does this mean that I get to go back and try again? No? My life as Herbert W. Armstrong was a one-time shot? Next time I have to go back as somebody else? Only go around once? Same spirit inside, different costume? New 'wine skin'...? Different parents? Different group of people to experience? Sometimes same groups of people..? Called Soul groups? All have different personalities? Never the same person twice? I will have to review all of my lifetimes and decide what I need to accomplish, and then pick the parents that can provide that experience? That WILL BE a FUTURE life, so to speak? In linear time's 'future'... Oh I get it... It's time within eternity... like a bubble of time floating in eternity? Yeah, I got it? Hey, that's great! I got it!!!!
"Got what, you ask? Who wants to know? Your name's Levi? Do I know you? Collected lots and lots of tithes in YOUR NAME? Oh THAT Levi... son of Jacob who became Israel who had twelve sons? Yeah... glad to meet you, I'm Herbe... oh you KNOW who I am!!! Whadda ya mean that tithing was done away? Whadda ya mean that it was established because all of the other sons of Israel were given land except the priesthood 'tribe of Levi'? That because the priests were given no land and needed to eat too, the others were required to give one tenth of their livestock and goods... not one tenth... not exactly??? I always thought a straight across the board tenth... Not always? Not if they only had nine sheep or nine goats... then they didn't have to give any? Oh. I required people to give a tenth of everything? Not the right thing to do when people had so little? Robbed them of their goods? Their food? Their homes? Their quality of life... because of my greed? Yeah, I've been told that HERE... So then when the Levitical priesthood was done away with, so was TITHING!!?? Should have been the END of it? Still used today to extort money from faithful church goers? So I'm not the only one? Lots more creeps out there? Maybe I can TEACH them when they come here if I've learned enough? Wow, THAT would be a day in history!!! Not everything is HIStory... ??? Some day there will be HERStory told too?
"OH, SO WE'RE BACK TO THAT, ARE WE? Gotta get those DAMNED WOMEN THEIR DUE!!!! What ever happened to me to turn me so AGAINST women? I dunno... I never THOUGHT about it! I just KNOW women are the weaker sex... blah blah blah... Shut up??? Not so? Equal? Only physically weaker? Mentally stronger? Have endured more? Have been experiencing their FEELINGS all along? So? What's your point, Lu lu Belle? I don't wanna MESS with you? You can turn me onto my feelings that I've STUFFED all of my life, and leave me a wimpering heap of EMOTIONS? But its WOMEN who are the emotional ones... blah blah blah... A bunch of bullshit??? Men who have shut down their feminine side are sick? Macho? Need to get therapy to address the emotions they've stuffed all their lives? Once they get out of their HEADS and into their FEELINGS they'll be WHOLE HUMAN BEINGS??? Androgenous? Both male and female in all of us? Like God? LIKE GOD IS? DAMN! I was trying to FORGET the SHE-God! Nobody will let me forget!!!!
"So you're telling me that once I get outta my HEAD and CAN the logical, literal thinking, I can get outta my own way and get EMOTIONAL? Like do you think I'm ready for the LOOOONEY BIN? At some point, some TURNING point, I will HAVE to get in touch with my FEELINGS? In order to progress on my spiritual mission of completion I will have to be IN MY FEELINGS???? Not so bad? Women have been doing it for years and they're doing just fine? Jesus Christ an excellent example of a WHOLE being? Lives in full acceptance of his FEELINGS? That's why he can be angry when it occurs to him to be angry and yet cry when something touches his gentle spirit??? Was God's emissary? One of God's chosen messengers to bring God's message to earth? Made more out of the messenger than they did out of the message? Message confused and distorted by RELIGION? Original message was one of LOVE? Brought information of spiritual realities here to bring human beings out of stifling, controlling organized religion? Came here to set human beings FREE OF ALL THAT? 'Powers that be' refused to allow the perpetuation of HIS message, but instead made a martyr out of him... yeah, I heard that story before... Wait 'till I get to Mary Summer Rain's book, "Eclipse" and find out that she confirms what that other author, Professor Fida Hassnain wrote about in his book, "A Search For The Historical Jesus"...? About Jesus' life span?
"And then you're giving me still ANOTHER BOOK TO READ? Don't you think I have enough reading to do? No? Must read, "The Dark Side of Christian History", by Helen Ellerbe? Oh yeah... that FEMALE author? Jesus Christ told me about that one!!! Why didn't I listen to him? Just another female author, that's why! Whadda ya mean women are just as capable of deciphering the TRUTH and recording it in print as any MAN is? Not the LAST female author I'm required to read? Just got started? Oh SHIT!
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"On the Other Side" 31
by Patti L. (c) 2000
"Oh we're off to see the WIZARD.... blah blah blah... the wonderful wizard of oz..... yippie kai yai oh.... off we go... back in the saddle again.... blah blah blah... Quiet? I'm getting on your nerves? A lousy singing voice? Can't carry a tune? Sound like a drunken sailor? Can't get the lyrics straight? Mixed two songs? Ok, ok... I'll shut up!! Where the hell are we now? Oh, we're here to see a demonstration? Of how matter is created? Watch closely? No SCIENTIFIC PROOF YET for this? Just beyond what scientists on earth now understand? How the spiritual condenses into various levels of solid matter? Like the vibrations, J.C.? Wow!! I'm gettin' it? Surprises you that I came up with that analogy? Getting the hang of things? Hey, that's great, man, that't just great!!!!
"So this is what science will discover through quantum physics? Wow!! On the verge of new understanding? Unlike MY new understanding that I conned my followers with every now and then? This is nothing new? Humanity will see it as a new discovery, but it has been this way as long as time has existed? Remember 'time' is encapsulated within space, which exists within eternity...? Ok, if you say so, J.C.
"Wow!!! So you're telling me that spirit condenses, becomes more dense as the frequency at which it vibrates is lowered, until we come to the lowest plane of existence, which is earth, made of matter? Wow!!! So everything that is on earth, is really made out of spirit? God is truly ALL in ALL? Everything that exists is BY and OF God? Now I see it, J.C. This is really sumpthin'!!!!!! Really sumpthin'...
"So where are we going to now, J.C.? Back to the reading room? Oh shit! I was just getting interested in something and you tell me I have to go back and read some more? Now I'll understand the books I'm going to be reading, because you've shown me a basic element of the universal truth? Now I'll comprehend more of the metaphysics of Mary Summer Rains books? Also more of what the Bible meant to say, but because of mistranslation and misinterpretation, has lost? You mean this knowledge was known back in the Biblical days, J.C.? It was known from the beginning of CREATION and lost along the way? Not by everyone... just by many...? The indiginous people of the earth retained these truths? Aboriginies of Australia... Native Americans... people who were given the continents they lived on originally and dwelled there longest, retained truths uncontaminated the longest, because it took longer for MISSIONARIES to reach them and destroy their civilizations?
"So now, J.C. are you going to tell me that Christopher Columbus WAS NOT A HERO? Ranks right up there with Hitler and Cortez? Stole natives of Americas and sold them into slavery? Murdered? Destroyed? Plundered? Started the whole invasion of the Americas and was as brutal to the natives as Hitler was to the Jews? Holocaust not the first genocide? Many massacres throughout history, of innocent people? Because of greed? Power? Control?
"HIStory only reports what the conquerers want remembered? Don't want future generations to realize how blood thirsty they were? Cover up the real truth? Sound familiar to me? Whudda ya mean, sound familiar? Oh, the part about covering up the real truth? Yeah, yeah, yeah... so whadda ya want me to do, J.C., get down and my knees and beg for your mercy? A good place to start? Haaaarumph!!!! I walked right into THAT trap!
"I just wanna find somebody to go have lunch with, I'm hungry!!!! Whadda ya mean, is THAT all I think about, MY STOMACH? No, actually, J.C., that isn't all I think about, but it is the ONLY VICE you'll allow me to indulge in here. I can think of lots of things I'd rather be doing, but since you restrict my behavior... I guess I'll settle for a succulent lunch... no succulent babes here anyway! Get my MIND off the carnal? Isn't that what I preached? Yeah, so what's your point? Point well taken? Time for a break? Halla lu ya!!!
"So here we are at the best restaurant in town!!!! I can hardly wait! You going to join me, J.C.? Got better things to do? I'll find somebody to chat with while I stuff my face? Not nice, J.C. Just stating the facts, huh? Bye. See ya. Oh, I'm off to see the wizard... well, well, well... who have we here? Hi Joe. Haven't seen you in a coon's age! Where you been keeping yourself? Back in the woods? No? At a huge library? Been doing a lot of reading, huh? Female authors too, huh? Sockin' it to us? Really cuttin' through the SHIT? Giving us the plain truth, without all the BULLSHIT??? So Joe, you enjoying reading? More interesting than MY DAMN BOOKLETS? THAT was uncalled for, Joe!!! The truth, Joe? The PLAIN TRUTH? I'll find somebody else to CHAT with, thank you! Hey you over there! Let me introduce myself... blah blah blah... my name is Herbert W. Armstrong, founder and Pastor General of the Worldwide Church of God....
"Where'd he go so fast? Dammit!!! Nobody likes me here!
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"On the Other Side" 32
by Patti (c) 2000
"So what's the purpose behind this latest visit, J.C.? I need to understand the severity of the impact I had on my followers? Oh. So sock it to me, J.C.! Not a joke? Pay attention and get serious? So show me... Oh, these people have lost their sense of who they are! They cannot listen to their own inner voice because I've told them it was carnal and Satanic, so therefore they hold no credibility for their own instincts or feelings... rely soley on my corrupt base of references... can no longer make their own decisions... souless wanderers? So when the rug was pulled out from under them either by disfellowshipment or eventually the doctrinal disintegration, they were disillusioned at such a rapid rate that they lost their bearings? Ya mean ta say that the foundation I built under them disintegrated and they fell apart??? Couldn't even pick the fly shit outta the pepper because I stole their ability for CRITICAL THINKING??? So some of them went crazy? Some of them couldn't cope and committed suicide? Some of them let the pieces crumble and fall to the ground... and gradually regrouped at a HIGHER level?
"So some of 'em weren't so bad off, huh, J.C.? Some learned to rebuild their lives? Went to professionals? Many were very misunderstood by the professionals who had never dealt with cult related issues before? Couldn't recognize these symptoms? Thought the people were just nuts? Had to spend lots of time building credibility with professionals? Now some recognize the validity of the post-cult syndrome? Still lots of cults and lots of misunderstanding??? Some lingering effects are not eraced?? Like what, J.C.? Trancing out at various times when watching TV or listening to lectures or radio? THAT all? Not all? Lost the ability to cope with normal aspects of life? Lose ability to spell correctly? Stutter? Short circuits the brain in some way by overload of senses??? Triggers posttraumatic stress? So you're holding me responsible for all this, J.C.? Only if I admit to being the founder and original pastor general of the Worldwide Church of God? Oh.
"Not all? More problems caused by my cult? Readjustments to REAL world after living under my LAWS made them NOT FIT IN with the general population? Caused many to do things contrary to their PERSONAL INTEGRITY, so therefore they have had a difficult time forgiving themselves for their behavior while in the cult? So, J.C., everyone knows that the 'world's a stage and each must play a part', like good ole Billy boy Shakespeare once said!!! Only correct to a point? The script writer is still responsible for the "play" because he is the one who tells the "players" what to say? The director is still responsible for the "play" because he is the one who tells the "players" how to PLAY THE ROLE? And the PLAYWRIGHT of the Worldwide Church of God IS ME? Therefore I am RESPONSIBLE for all the actors upon my STAGE? I STAGED quite a performance, huh?
"One of HIStory's many box office ironies? A tragic irony??? Whudda ya mean it was a flash-in-the-pan SMASH? Had its hay-day? Disintegrating now like bubbles in a cold tub of water? Down the drain? The baby has truly been thrown out with the bath water? Caused enough plumbing problems? Plugged up many brains and many drains??? Getting carried away there on your analogies, aren't you, J.C.? Haven't even begun to explain the corruptions I've caused? Will take many more trips back here to even make an impression on me? I'm THAT dense? Still bogged down in my E*G*O???
"So, J.C., I thought I was making some progress? Reading all that stuff and learning all about the REAL spritual truths...? Kindergarten stuff? People like me have caused earth's people to lose their God-given facts of life? Pukin' sick of the likes of me? Would like to leave me off for a lengthy visit with MY CO HORTS? Would like to bundle up the whole LOT of us and suspend us in OUTER SPACE? Except that there's enough pollution there already? No respect, J.C... I don't GET no respest!!! I GET what I deserve? Respect is something one GETS from GIVING? Not a free gift? Must be EARNED?
"Whadda ya mean, unlike God's gift of free will, RESPECT is a commodity that is only gained through GIVING IT FIRST!!!!???? Whadda ya mean I caused all of my followers to try to GAIN SALVATION through their own EFFORTS, disempowering GOD's REALITY of the GIFT of UNCONDITIONAL ETERNAL LIFE, and CONNED THEM into a FALSE respect for a FALSE APOSTLE whose message was BOGUS BEYOND SANITY, much less reality??? Not nice to say, J.C.!! Truth isn't ALWAYS NICE? Some truth is the 'painful truth'? I don't get no RESPECT because I don't GIVE NO RESPECT? N*O*W I've GOT IT? Just the idea... NOT the respect? Oh.
"Harumph!!!! Whatta buncha shit! All I get is shit! Whadda ya mean if I didn't eat so damn much I wouldn't get so much? Give me a break, dammit!!! I'm NEW HERE! I DON'T KNOW THE ROPES, YET. Whadda ya mean I've been here long enough to have moved on to higher planes, but my ARROGANCE, EGO, ATTITUDE and HUMAN NATURE have caused me to be STUCK in my own pile of SHIT? Think about it???
"Now he's thrown that damn HUMAN NATURE stuff at me!! Dammit, just because I used that on my followers all the time, now he's turning it on me! Whadda ya mean its my KARMA???? Whadda ya mean I've earned the RIGHT to wallow in my own HUMAN NATURE same as in my own MANURE? Whadda ya mean I've excreted a great deal of refuse? Another word for GARBAGE? Whadda ya mean its my free will choice to either stay in my shit or progress to another level of existance by my own choice? The freedom to choose is mine? Now I'm confused....
to be continued...
The
Adventures of HWA "On the Other Side"
33 by Patti (c) 2000
"Hopeless!!!
It's just PLAIN hopeless! Nobody likes me. I don't get no respect. I can't
read any more books. I can't even eat my pork chops because I burned them
again. I can't cook. I can't leave this place. I don't have any friends. I
miss Herman. Even Stanley. Almost miss Gerald, but not quite. I'd even settle
for a visit from John Trechak... just a friendly face. But NO. J.C. says
READ!!! Read those damn books. I've read... Only got one left. Can't read NO
MORE. Can't even sleep. Can't do much of anything. I'm just on OVERLOAD?????
Oh, its you J.C. You say I'm on OVERLOAD? Just a temporary state of mind
YOU'VE IMPOSED upon me???? You mean YOU DID THIS O*N P*U*R*P*O*S*E??????? Made
me read until I couldn't anymore? Piled all this on me until I couldn't
function? HOW DARE YOU, Jesus Christ, DELIBERATELY cause me to.... You say,
STOP???? Reason for all this????
"Sometimes
the ONLY way to get your point across is to SHOW me??? Let me EXPERIENCE it
for myself??? I'm too slow? Need to make some progress? Even Joe Tkach has
earned three points since he's been here and I've been here a LOT longer and
should have made some points by now??? So what INDEED are YOU trying to SHOW
me??? As far as I'm concerned THIS WHOLE THING IS H*O*P*E*L*E*S*S!!!!!
"EXACTLY?
What the HELL do you mean by "EXACTLY"????? You mean that I am
absolutely CORRECT in stating that this whole thing is HOPELESS???? Exactly???
Now you're pissin' me off, dammit!!!! I can't READ!!! I can't THINK anymore! I
can't COOK! And I can't STAND YOU and your DAMN IDEALISTIC BULLSHIT!!!! So
there, Jesus Christ!!! Whadda ya think of THAT??? Made your POINT? A
successful demonstration of what I did to my followers? Created in them a
state of HOPELESSNESS by making them live in the FUTURE, not the PRESENT,
overloading them with information, putting them on SENSORY OVERLOAD like I'm
experiencing now??? Also created in them an INABILITY to READ? Whadda ya mean
I didn't let them READ? So you're telling me that by my forbidding them to
read outside materials I cut them off from the real world? Yeah? So what???
And then by REQUIRING them to read all MY stuff and constantly HARPING on my
DOCTRINES
I caused their brains to SHORT CIRCUIT? Didn't have PERMISSION any longer to
READ?
"Awwww
WHAT A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT!!! Not bullshit? You're saying thats the way I RAN MY
CULT, caused people to be at SENSORY OVERLOAD, caused them to NOT BE ABLE TO
READ, caused them to NOT BE ABLE TO THINK???? I caued them to not be able to
CRITICALLY THINK???? Yeah... so? I'm thinking pretty critically right now
myself!!! That's because I was NEVER UNDER MIND CONTROL???? But my followers
WERE???? Yeah, yeah, yeah, J.C. So you're laying a lot of shit on me now and
holding me RESPONSIBLE.... so what do ya want me to do now, REPENT?
"Not
impressed by my empty REPENTENCE? Can't be trusted to REALLY change. Still
arrogant, puffed up in my own importance and addicted to power and
CONTROL!!???
Yeah, so I'm in a bad mood. Sue me!!!
"Sit
in it??? You're telling me to SIT IN IT???? Sit in my FEELINGS???? EXPERIENCE
MY FEELINGS??? OVERCOME??? Whadda ya mean, OVERCOME IT???? I can't stand it!!!
I JUST CAN'T STAND IT!!!! Call you when I've overcome it? A day is as a
thousand years???? All the same to you??? Dammit!!! I Can't STAND IT!!!
"I
wish everybody would just leave me alone.... just leave me alone... Can't
because that would be leaving me to my OWN DEVICES???? Going to have a talk?
I've got NOTHING I want to talk to YOU about, Jesus Chirst. I'm all talked
out! Leave me alone!!! Never ALONE? Always someone with us? A guide? A
guardian ANGEL? Oh THAT BULLLLLSHIT again!!!? Yeah, I read the message from
the archangel.... about following the commandments.... in the
"Visitation" book.... yeah... even ten lousy commandments were
somewhat screwed up in how humankind understands
their
meaning... but would be a good place to start... yeah, J.C., that archangel's
prophecy is really sumpthin'... oh and it will come to pass, unlike all MY
FAILED PROPHECIES????? Really know how to hurt a guy, J.C... Truth is truth?
I'm responsible for my own feelings? Gimmie a BREAK! Lots of breaks?
"Yeah,
yeah, yeah... I know that archangel guy explains a lot of stuff that even I
didn't know about.... like the 'IMMACULATE CONCEPTION' and the PYRAMIDS!!!
Levitation!!!! Harumph!!!! Levitation... built by levitation? Whadda ya mean,
just like I built MY CHURCH on a lotta HOT AIR? Whadda ya mean, well almost an
analogy??? STOP LAUGHING! Dammit!!! Stop laughing! Its NOT funny.
"Whadda
ya mean we've been watching holographic images for a LONG TIME, trying to
explain their cause??? Whadda ya mean examples in the Bible??? The burning
bush? The Magi star??? Apparitions? Whadda ya mean walking on water and
parting of the Red Sea were done by levitation???? Are you telling me that I
can't believe my OWN EYES??? That's what I told my followers? Not to believe
their own eyes... ears... feelings... senses... instincts... but my reasons
were not the same as God's? My reasons were selfish in nature? My reasons were
to control the people and create an illusion to HIDE truth, while God's
reasons were used to create illusions to ILLUSTRATE and DEMONSTRATE
unconditional, eternal LOVE and TRUTH???
"Harumph!!!
Just layin' a guilt trip on me!!! I'm sickuv it! Now I'm supposed to believe
that killin' is more than murder, but killin's manipulating, twisting,
deceiving, and destroying QUALITY of LIFE so now I'm a murderer too! Dammit!!!
I think this WHOLE THING is just a HOPELESS PIT!!!! Like the HOPELESS pit I
drove my followers into? More GUILT slinging, J.C.? Not? You're allowing me to
FEEL the HOPELESSNESS that my followers FELT??? Sit in it? Stop whining? Oh
Geeeeze!!!
to
be continued...
The
Adventures of HWA "On the Other Side" 34
by
Patti (c) 2000
"So
John Trechak, you came DOWN here because you heard my request to see a
friendly face? Just wanna see what's goin' on so you can report on me? Not
writing the Ambassador Report anymore? Just being nosey? Oh, I see! You just
want to know what I'm up to? Not much, John. Not much of anything these days.
I've been doing a lot of READING... just one book after another. Have even
lost my appetite because the pork chops are burnt. Well, sure, I cooked them
myself!!! Why didn't I just IMAGINE them cooked and the power of THOUGHT would
have taken care of it for me here? You're shittin' me, John!!! I should try
it? Ok. John... LOOK AT THAT!!! It worked! And all this while I was slaving
away in the kitchen trying to cook! Now I can have anything I want just by
THINKING IT????? Hey, where's that lucious babe that I saw walk by the other
day?? Heh, heh, heh???
"Free
will? Not just my whims fulfilled? EVERYONE, including the lucious babes have
the POWER to exercise their free will? Would have to agree to come and see me?
No takers?? Their FREE WILL just as valid as MINE? Oh, I see. Can't order
people around in this place? No authority here? Oh... yeah... I NOTICED!!!
So,
John, you just came here for a visit? No? Have another assignment? So you're
taking orders these days? No? Volunteered for the job because no one else
would do it? Came to take me to experience something new? Ya mean I can get
outa here for awhile? Yippie!!! I'm ready to roll!!! Where we goin', John?
Can't tell me? Just be patient, huh. We'll be there in a minute! Hey that's
great man!
"Wow!!
Look at all those mirrors!! The hall of reflection? Never heard of such a
place, John. Why we here? Because I need to do some reflecting? Have to sit in
that chair in the middle of the room, so that no matter where I look I see
myself? Seems weird to me, John, but anything's better than READING... You'll
be back? Ok, see ya, John....
"Boy,
this is really uncomfortable... I don't like looking at myself. I wish I was
taller... And not so FAT... too many damn pork chops! Sure do love 'em though.
Wish I had some that weren't burnt... oh! Look at that! A plate of 'em right
here! Wow... yum, yum.... chomp...chomp... oh... do I ever look awful chowin'
down these chops... never realized how I looked when I ate before... now that
the mirror is here, its rather disgusting... Hummm, I need a tooth pick... heh,
heh... works every time! Now for a glass of lemonade... oh HELL, I'll have a
whiskey-sour!!! Hey... it worked... burp... that was great! Gimme another
one... burp! Bring on the whole bottle... heh heh, why ration it... heh heh....
"Hey,
bub, you over there! Shorty! You're lookin' pretty wacked out... heh heh...
teetering a little bit too, bub... so have a drink on me... burp! Now wasn't
that good! Never run out... heh... heh... now need a juke box and some
music... and a babe or two... oh, listen to that music... hey babes? babes? No
damn babes.... that DAMN free will... heh heh... oh but what fun it is to...
"Looook
at myself in the MIRRROR? Hey J.C.!!! We're havin' a party!!! A party of ONE?
No, me and that short, fat little guy over there, heh, heh... and that one
ovveeeer there, and bub ovveeer there too, burrrp! Heh heh... like you said, a
party of ONE... ??? Whadda ya mean party's over??? We just got started.......
OVER? ... go home and sober up? Incorrigible? Burp? Who me??? Lockin' me up?
Confined to my rooooom? Burp? You'll be back tomorrrrrow??
"Who's
there? Quiet down! Have some consideration! Man! My HEAD HURTS!!!! I'm
coming... just a minute... Oh... J.C. its you. Now what? Whadda ya mean since
I have turned my opportunity to take a realistic look at myself into a fiasco,
I can come with you to time travel? Show me my behaviors David Robinson wrote
about in his book so I can refresh my memory... since I already have the
hangover? You sure are cruel, J.C. Not cruel? Just showing me my life as it
really was... was I THAT drunk? Oh... don't go so fast, J.C. Effects are an
illusion... just like the booze was? Sober up? Get serious? Get a load of
THAT!!!
"Whadda
ya mean, didn't I get enough drinking and partying back on earth? Looks like I
was having a GREAT time, J.C. Whadda ya mean, don't I have ANY remorse? No. In
all honesty, J.C., it was the best time of my life. I mean... all the food,
drink, women... travel... dignitaries... mansions... anything a man could
want... I had it ALL!!! Whadda ya mean, what about LOVE? Whadda ya mean, does
all that partying make me love myself? Isn't that what its all about, J.C.
Living it up? Partying? Enjoying life?
"So
you're telling me I've got to be SOBER and SOMBER and CELIBATE? NO!!! NO!!!
NOT THIS!!! I CAN'T LIVE THIS WAY.... snore... snort... zzzz
"Snore....sputter....
zzz... argh! 'Mornin' John... Whadda ya doin' here? You told me you'd be back?
Huh? Where am I? Same place you left me? Huh? But I thought... I must have
been sleeping? THAT was a dream? Oh SHIT! Hey that's great! I thought it was
REAL!!! Another reality? Here we go again!!! PLEEEESE tell me that isn't so!!!
Can't? Have to tell it like it is? Dreams are real? That's why you're paging
through that book on dream symbols? Dreams help to make sense out of what is
going on? Sometimes we're not aware consciously? Dreams tell us? Sometimes
people in dreams tell us things we need to know? Sometimes dreams are really
visits to other places? Oh, like that HIPPIE and those other people that came
to see me in THEIR dreams??? Oh. Hey... I was dreaming!! I don't have to be
sober, somber and celibate then, do I? Sounds more like a NIGHTMARE, John?
Yeah, it does, doesn't it, John! Stop laughing... John... John...
"Dammit!
Its not FUNNY! I can't even tell the difference anymore if I'm awake or
sleeping! Give me that DAMN BOOK! Maybe I can figure out what all this
means!!! Damn dreams! John, you're not making matters any better! Stop
laughing, John!
to
be continued...
The
Adventures of HWA
"On
the Other Side" 35
by Patti (c) 2000
"Haaaarrrrumph!!!! No
DAMN respect! I get no respect at
all!!! Mirrors! Who wants to glare at themself for
hours!!! Vanity!!! Just vanity!!! And those damn NIGHTMARES!!! I can't stand it!!! I JUST CAN'T STAND IT!!! At least I'm back here in my reading
room. One last damn book to
read... oh... and this one is about ME!!!
I wonder why Mary Summer Rain would write a book about ME? Herbs... says here that the way to
good health is through Herb....s... awh.. she means 'herbs' not 'Herb's'... awh NUTS! Them too? You EVESdropping on me again? Heard me talking to myself and just
couldn't resist the temptation to 'drop in'?? Stop laughing!!! I
mean it, J.C., STOP laughing! I
DID TOO think she was writing about ME!!!
Not about me? About all
the gifts of the earth to mankind? That's
why the title is 'Earthway'? Shows
what medicines can be gotten from the earth, and what they'll cure, and all
about how the planetary alignments, and moon phases affects humans??? I don't have to MEMORIZE the book? Just read it... yeah... I guess I can
do that... and then you want to talk to me?
AFTER I read just one more book? Another
BOOK? NOW WHAT!!? I thought I just had ONE left to
read!!!! This one is by Edgar
Cayce? Who's he? As a child he put his homework books
under his pillow and absorbed everything in them by sleeping on them? Had special gifts from God? Lead an exemplary life? Drew his information from the
collective conscious?
"So you're telling me that this Edgar Cayce guy was quite a
prophet? His prophecies come
true, unlike mine!? Called him
the SLEEPING prophet because he got his prophecies while unconscious? Even SLEEPING he was more accurate
than me? I was just a FRAUD and Edgar Cayce was the REAL THING!? Rub it in,
J.C., just rub it in... hope it makes you feel better... doesn't make you feel
better? Excited to share this
great truth with me? Shit, J.C.
I've been preaching the PLAIN TRUTH for so long never thought I'd get somebody
else's version of TRUTH shoved down MY THROAT!!
Not forcing me? I have
free will?? Can always choose to
go to Belial? Who the hell is
this Belial anyway, J.C.? Read
the book? Damn it, its not FAIR!! Can't you just explain it to me? Don't have time? Whadda ya mean you don't have TIME? I thought you said a day was as a thousand years here? Point well taken... glad I
understand??? Dammit, J.C. You're pissin' me off! What's the... oh... you've already got
the book here for me? "Edgar
Cayce's Story of The Origin and Destiny of Man" by Lytle Robinson... any
relation to that damn DAVID Robinson? STOP
LAUGHING! Its NOT funny! J.C. I was just ASKING!!! Whadda ya mean you're not a
genealogist? Lots of lineages
named their children after them... adding "son" to their first
names... like Herbertson..? Yeah, right!
"So this book will tell me about Belial and the Creation? Also about some other facts left out
of the history books... like the rise and fall of Atlantis? Hummmm... maybe it won't be such bad reading after all...
better than having to look at myself in all directions... HATE that... not FUN
to see myself... uh...you're still here, J.C...
What else? So this Edgar
Cayce is the opposite of me you say? Gave
his entire life to helping other people?
Used his GIFT to assist thousands of people in healing and helping them
understand the real truths of things as he was given them. Unlike me who did an 'in depth' six
month study of the bible and Mein Kampf and used it to EXPLOIT PEOPLE for my
OWN SELFISH GAIN... yeah, so what's your point, J.C.? Just read the damn book, huh?
Ok.. ok..
"And when I get done with that you've got a few more important
books I need to read? You aren't
going to QUIT are you? J.C.? You're going to just keep it up,
making me read all that stuff! What's
your POINT? I really want to
know, J.C... What's your point? He
wouldn't want even ONE to be lost? Not
even me??? NO SHIT!? Not even ME? Not even me... Well,
I'll be damned! Not be damned? That's the whole point? So you're telling me, J.C. that I'm
NOT damned even after all the shit I've done?
That's right? I've just
got a LOT to learn and all the TIME of ETERNITY to learn it... ? but if I want to get on the band
wagon, I'll have to make some effort to LOOK at myself and get HONEST? I KNEW there was a catch to it, J.C. I KNEW there was some IMPOSSIBLE BRICK
WALL I could NEVER... one brick
at a time? A few short of a load
anyway? Get out the chizel? Whadda ya mean A metaphor? Think about
it? Haaaarrrumph!
"Whadda ya mean maybe you'll give me another book to read from
the Edgar Cayce material? About
you, J.C.? About your
incarnations? You mean YOU were
recycled too? Lots of times? Many trips to earth? Really
saved mankind's ass? And NOT by
dying on the cross? What? Went to earth as a spirit to save the
souls who'd incarnated into flesh... tried to lure them back to God... time and time again....? In spirit and flesh? Was rough? Whadda ya mean NOT by dying on the
cross? Whadda ya mean that
WOULDN'T HAVE SAVED A*N*Y*O*N*E????? Whadda
ya mean that was a trick by the Romans to make a martyr out of YOU? Consider the possibility? Would change everything??? HOLY SHIT!!!
"So you mean to tell me, J.C. that you didn't really DIE on the
cross? All that stuff in the
Bible about you being crucified is bullshit?
NOT bullshit? I don't get
it, J.C. Now I'm confused... so
you spent a lot of time in the middle east learning about yoga and many truths
that were known to the ancients? Didn't
sit around preaching or knocking over money changers tables ALL the time? Had a lot of stuff to LEARN too? Had many teachers? Traveled all over the place?
Was part of the Brotherhood of the Essenes? They knew the dangers? Protected
you? Saved your LIFE? Brought lots of medicines to heal your
body? Restored your health? Let you travel incognito for a long,
long time afterwards, fulfilling your mission?
Never meant to start a new religion?
Was never even a Christian? Would
never want to be one? Not
made-to-order 'christian' by those who made a martyr out of you? Hummm....
"That's lots to take in, J.C.
Lots of information contradictory to everything I've ever believed...
beliefs AREN'T truths? Time to clean out the bullshit and learn the TRUTH? The plain truth? Whadda ya mean I need
to read "E.T. 101" first? By
Mission Control and Zoev Jho? ANOTHER
book? Oh shit!
to be continued...
The
Adventures of HWA
"On
the Other Side" 36
by Patti (c) 2000
"Lumps!!! These
DAMN lumps!! I can't sleep! I've tried and tried, and these books
are just more than I can take!!! I
thought maybe if I'd sleep on them like Edgar Cayce did that I could get out
of reading them... like HE did... Osmosis would make it soooooo much easier!!! But NOOOOOOOO!!! Not my luck!! I
have to READ the damn things... word by word... sentence by sentence...
paragraph by paragraph... then HE brings me MORE!!! 'E.T. 101' like I'm some kind of
kindergartener! Harumph! Might as well get up and READ!!!!
"Interesting stuff here... sure takes me back beyond the six
thousand years I taught of the existance of man on earth... this 'Origin and
Destiny of Man' ... guess I should have studied more books... Whadda ya mean
there's no time like the present to learn?
Still another book? Hey,
J.C., I couldn't sleep as it IS with all THESE books to read!!! Whadda ya mean you found the other one
you want me to read?!!! Another
one??? This one's a biography
about YOU? About your
incarnations on earth? Hummmm...
THAT might just be interesting, J.C. Lets
see it! Says here your name was
Amilius when you tried to rescue your brothers and sisters from the
physical... you were still a spirit and tried to influence them, but it didn't
work... hummmm... So this book,
"Lives of The Master" by Glenn Sanderfur is going to show me some of
your incarnations besides that of J.C.? Wow...
and your names were different each time, huh?
And here there's stuff about Belial and the Sons of Belial... guess
I'll read this, J.C. Looks
really, rEEEEally interesting!!!!
"Hummm... says here you were the Alpha and the Omega... first
and last... first in the beginning... helped create the physical bodies for
mankind... then your soul was divided... not a rib... mistranslation... hummmm....
rib means 'side'.... soul divided into twin souls, male and female.... hummmmm
so a helpmeet was created and she has reincarnated with you throughout all
time? Many times? All from the same Alpha? All ONE. Wow!!!
NOT a SEPARATE MOTHER EVE? Not!
"Bits and pieces? Whadda
ya mean, J.C.? "Bits and
pieces"??? Not all truths
are known by anyone... have to read lots of books to find the bits and pieces? Sending me along a trail to discern
the bits of truths that have been retained by humankind? Hummm... I should have read more books when I was your
Apostle, J.C. I could have... Was never rEEEEEly an apostle? Oh yeah... I forgot... But if I'd
known more I... yeah... you're probably right... If I'd have known more, I'd
have used it to confuse the truth even more...
Well at least now I'm getting things figured out... And don't have the
MEANS to influence anyone else? Yeah,
that's true, J.C. Not with you 'readin'
my mail!!! No mail here? Figure of speech, J.C., just a figure
of speech... not UP on slang? Ok...
I guess we DO understand one another at any rate... Get back to the books? Ok, this is really interesting....
"Oh... you're back, J.C. To
WHAT do I OWE this PLEASURE? Brought
me ANOTHER BOOK TO READ!??? Geeeeezus...
how can I read all these books? All the time in the world here? This one is huMONgous!!! Hummm.... Manly Hall... actually heard
of him, J.C. He was quite a
guy... "The Secret Teachings of All
Ages"... yeah... borrowed from his work a bit, J.C. heh, heh... Obvious? Oh... didn't think you'd notice... heh,
heh... Hard NOT to? Even the
title with a twist? Heh heh...
can't ignore a good thing... huh, J.C.?
Yeah, he published through his 'Philisophical Research Society' in L.A.
We were neighbors at one time, J.C....
J.C.? Where'd he go?
"You're back! With
a visitor? Meet Manly Hall? Just called him from a higher plane? Was reluctant to come down here? Only came because YOU asked him to? Can he autograph his BOOK for me? No???
Why not, J.C.?? These
aren't MY books? Belong to the
Hall of Knowledge Library??? Just
checked out and must be returned??? Oh...
So Mr. Hall, did WE ever have our pictures taken together? No time for nonsense? Had limited time to finish your life's
work? Had to get back here to get
ready for your next incarnation? Oh...
I see... Me too! But they
tell me its gonna be awhile.... J.C. here tells me I have a 'fixated ego'...
guess that means its gonna take a lot to jostle the pivot point... don't care
to listen to drivel? Not MEANT as
an INSULT... just the plain truth?
"Harumph!! No
respect!! I don't get NO respect. Damn ARROGANT jerks! Just because THEY... just because they
made better choices with their free will?
Finishing my sentences for me now, huh, J.C.? Filling in the TRUTH where I lack it? Oh... well exCUSSSSE me!
I MUST get back to my READING! Harumph!!!
"Hummmm... says here there was a lot of genetic manipulation in
Atlantis.... drones were created... humans genetically manipulated to be
slaves... downfall of Atlantis... super technologies too, like todays world of
computers.... misused power to subvert a whole bunch of people and exploit
them... hummmm... I wonder if I had anything to do with this in a past life? Maybe that's where I started this
power and control path? EVESdropping
again, J.C.? Just wanted to
mention that if I want to know for sure, I can sometime check the Akashic
Records for all of my incarnations? I
might be surprised where my spirit has been?
Not every lifetime took me backwards?
Advanced my spirit in some? I
wouldn't be this FAR had some NOT been advancement? So I'm not as bad off as I think I am? Not as bad off as I COULD be?
Did fulfill some good things out of my lifetime as Herbert W.
Armstrong? Caused many people to
become DISILLUSIONED with the STATUS QUO and begin to THINK for themselves
once they got past the MIND CONTROL? Caused
them to advance their spirits? I
get credit for all of my karma, both bad AND good? Not ALL BAD? Only God can really weigh it all out
because only God has the infinite knowledge of all of our deeds?
"Hey, that's COOL MAN!!!! God
uses people like me to pull the religious rug out from under people because
they are complacent and don't QUESTION what they've been told is REALITY? God wants people to SEEK? Too many never seek? Just follow? Get into trouble this way like dumb sheep? Yeah... I've heard THAT story, J.C. quite a bit lately...
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